Things turned out with a positive response today, thankfully!
So now the next thing I need to do is to learn how not to be jealous and start having expectations that I would be special like how my brain invented in my fantasies. I need to remind myself to keep grounded to reality. Likewise, I also need to ensure I don’t make things special and make imaginary connections that my mind just made up. That’s how I got in trouble last year that brought me to spiral down a deep pit. I don’t ever want to be in that state again. Never.
Tomorrow I am going to my much anticipated meditation retreat and I’m really counting on it to provide me the mental and emotional stability that I direly need. One of the teachings there is to love without getting attached, I hope to learn that so that I won’t ever have a broken heart.
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