I think I did it? I’ve successfully restrained myself from making an insane move due to my overthinking. Even if I’m starting to have mind games again due to the radio silence for three days now, I think I got my thoughts in control and I will execute as to plan: tomorrow I will reach out since I have a valid and very safe reason to. My trauma from last year’s incident is giving me paranoia right now so I am trying to console myself that this is different because I am aware that I am not in pursuit of playing a game. I really genuinely am trying my best to retain just a friendship with who I believe is a good person. But of course, I am preparing myself for the worst, that is, a no response. Then I guess I would give it another chance for a couple of days and then I move on and charge it to experience as just another short encounter that was not meant to last long. I will have to accept whatever fate gives me since resistance is futile. But of course, there is also the chance that things might go well so…bon courage à moi!
No comments:
Post a Comment