What have I just done?!

It's been toying in my mind for some days and today I finally did it.

I dug up an old memory and provoked it.

Why I did it, you ask? 

I just want to have interesting conversations, perhaps relive the self confidence of my young self.

Perhaps it was because last night I dreamt of an encounter. I was my current self and I met a man, who looked like an actor I had a crush with when I was a teen. We interacted, and then the next scene I turned into a young woman who emerged from a cave, her face had this big smile and an aura of satisfaction. She was wearing a black blouse, it was white before that. I wasn't her anymore, I think, because I didn't feel what she experienced and I could only deduce what she did from my perspective as an observer. Her look made a lot of sense if I was right.

I already regret what I have done as soon as I've hit that send button. I cannot undo it.