Friendship fatigue

I was in line to the cashier, holding a pink sweater that I've finally found would be a suitable birthday present for a new friend I was about to meet up with. Then seven minutes from our meetup time I got a message from the said new friend saying that she lost track of time and would not be able to make it to our meetup.I immediately got out of the line, returned the sweater to the rack and got out of the shop. I felt like I woke up from a trance and realized why the heck did I spend so much effort looking for a gift for someone who obviously didn't value me?!

Then I realized it's another pattern I have with making new friends, I go way above and beyond because I want the friendship to develop but then it turns out there's no equal reciprocation in the end. Then I get brokenhearted and disappointed big time.

But yes, I do give second chances. So when the said new friend asked to reschedule I said yes. But this time I made sure that I would not exert any effort to go out of my way to make this happen. So we did get to get together today and she did sincerely apologize. But I just felt tired the whole time and I didn't feel any enthusiasm anymore to pursue this friendship. To begin with, the history behind our lives crossing came with heavy excess baggage, and yet I gave it a chance, but after that sudden cancellation I've just totally lost interest already and my attempt to redeem it with a second chance today didn't amend it. So, all I can say is, well, too bad because I'm tired.